My instructor posed a question to the group today. “Do you matter? What’s good about you? Why are you important?” As a whole group that’s a good question. It makes you think about those things.
I was then singled out and asked those questions expected to answer in front of the whole group. I could almost feel my face go red. Of course I matter. I’m a person. Don’t all people matter? I went on to answer about who I am, and why I’m important.
As if this wasn’t embarrassing enough he then went on to ask the class what they thought about what I had said? Did I convince them I’m important. Do I matter as a person because of what I said? The class said mostly nice things, but I felt like I was put on trial.
If you’re reading my blog post I want to be clear about something. You matter. You are important. You aren’t a mistake. You have value. If anyone in life has ever made you feel otherwise then they are wrong. I don’t need to defend why I matter to you because I know that I do. The hurt is there but that will go away in a couple days because who I am is rooted in who I belong to. God doesn’t make mistakes. He doesn’t see me as worthless. I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
I keep coming back to this verse. If you’re struggling with your identity and how you think about yourself. Read this and soak it in. It’s been a comfort tonight. “But you are not like that, for you are a chosen people. You are royal priests, a holy nation, God’s very own possession. As a result, you can show others the goodness of God, for he called you out of the darkness into his wonderful light.” I could probably post verse after verse about how God sees you and me. I’ll leave you with this though because it’s been a long night.